The way it meant to be

If I get to do it all over again

I want to spend my time loving you; learning you

To look into my heart, dive deep into my fear

I will choose to trust, with the innocence of a little child

I will choose wisdom, to see beyond what my eyes can see

I will choose understanding, your heart, your love, your fear

If I get to do it all over again

I will put down my sword and armor

I will hold on tight to my brush

I will paint our days with laughter, with bold color of hope

I will heal our mortal pain with each stroke of paint

I will draw wings so our love can fly, high up in the deep blue sky

I will set us free, free from our own prison, our limitations

I will set us free so we can love each other

The way it meant to be…

Golden Heart

My father said “Prosperity is easy to reach but a golden heart is hard to find”

Waiting for a golden heart, I have for many years,

Dreaming for a soul that is tried and true, I have for many moons

Faithful to the only thing I know, my heart

You came to me not quietly, not unsuspectingly

But uncannily,

You read my heart, shattered my armor

You melted my layers, ice cold fear

I asked my father, “Have I found my golden heart”

He walked with me in my dream and said, “Look into your heart”

So

I want to give you my golden heart

For today... and for always!

Take me home

Most of my days, my nights
I spend alone;
whispering prayers under the quivering lights
Thousands of miles, oh solemn miles
Far away from the place I was born
You wake me, in the early hours
Twinkles in your eyes
Smile on your face
When you hold me
You take me back home
You take me back to my childhood home, where love resides
Where everything exists now only in my mind
Most of my days, of my nights
I spend like a child. Who's afraid of ghosts in my mind!
I know, there is nothing out there
I'm still afraid to turn on the lights
Although now
Most of my days I spend alone in my mind
A thousand miles from the place I was born
When you hold me
You take me back home

Lullaby

In the game of love
Always one person gets left behind in the cold
Love is not the same I have been told
When you are the one with nothing left to hold
For better for worst until the day we are old
He said
She said
But in the end
When we are all looking for another chance
Another chance of love, another chance of life
We left behind the one
The one lesson; to have but not to hold
We find another horizon, another sky to fly
To spread the broken wings, to try
But can you hear; my late at night, my early morning’s cries
Can you hear the flutter of my heart
by the window sills
Like a lark, travel only at night
I sing you lullaby, deep in your sleep, in your dream
The one lesson;
To have but not to hold until the day we are old!

Mother's words

My mother said don’t live your life waiting for the other shoe to fall
She said; live your life like today is your last day, with no fear
Swirl with joy, dance with pain, and laugh with tears
When life delivers happiness, open your arms, your heart
And when life is dry and sad, sit and wait
Everything she said and tried to instill in my mind
She said; look into a person’s eyes so you can see their sky
Look for the true color for doesn’t matter how much you try
People are people; they will be what they will be
Choose wisely
The company you keep
For to change a person, the chance is very steep
It’s not necessary the reflection of your values, moral codes
But it is a reflection of how you view the world, your world
Slow down, she said; life is short enough
Take today and live in today
Don’t go look for trouble
And don’t look back
My mother said life is a game of wait and go
When life offers opportunities you don’t ask
My mother said so
And when life’s struggle is too great, let sit it out and wait
Love is strength and harshness that heart of your
Think with your heart but never let go of your head
The power is in you
All started with you and will end with YOU

All Along

Dance, dance quietly
Swaying slowly, the little girl under the night sky
Hands are reaching high
Gathering stars and dreams
Gathering hearts and wishes
And she was all alone
Dance, dance quietly
Swaying slowly, in the stream of life
Hands are spreading wide
Letting go of old memories
Letting go of distance past
And she is no longer alone
Love has found her, has been around her
All along!

Elizabeth

She flies away so far into the sky, so high

so bright the sun

My eyes can’t see, blurred with tears

She flies away quietly into the night

her wings landed softly

settled into her dreams

where her heart resides

and it is no longer

by my side

Control

Woke up today and I am in love

Flutter lights of dawn like butterflies

seeped through the windows, landed on my hands

Empty hands

Gentle little squeeze of his void overwhelmed my heart, my soul

Caressed the thought of his warm embrace, kisses

of everything amiss, the silence, his emptiness

Gasped for air

My heart, vulnerable again, open again, soft again

My soul, naked again, aware again, alive again

Fully alert of the new sensation,

the quiet intruder

Crawling under my skin like parasites, eat away layer by layer

my control

Playground

I love you more every day

More than I can imagine I can ever love a person

The burning passion come from deep inside the soul

Where love is pure and true

We put our souls on display; vulnerable, naked, and cold

In love, we are warriors

Fight for what we need and ready to receive with open heart, open arms

For every sunrises

And every sunsets

Knowing we are here to hold each other hands

To walk together as best friends

And hand in hand we find that place together

Our playground

Beyond myself

You shook up my world and woke up the fragile inner child

the soft, innocent, frighten

little soul hide behind the helpless sad eyes

The little broken heart is filled with Doubts

And

Every time I laid my head down in despair

drop of tears would come flooded my eyes

You stood strong and still and kind

You whispered your sweet love

You paint my sky with rainbow color of hopes

Because of you

I learn to embrace my truth, my broken heart, my soft soul

I learn to be brave, to risk

I learn to trust again

Beyond myself

Pray

Can the world see me as I am?

Can soul, heart, and dreamers have

a place

in this careless world with careless souls

Can love, lost, separation, and joy coexist?

When you say good bye to

someone dear

And shed no tears?

Can you feel my pain, the pain of lost

Since tomorrow I will not see you again

I won’t be there to hug, to touch

To wipe away your tears

To love, to laugh, and share a shoulder

A soft shoulder so you

Can lean on

The series of events

the constant changes

Can tears wash away the mortal pain?

to life, to love

can you join me

let us pray

that we will love

will care

and give our heart away to people who deserves

This is where I will stay

Under the soft hazy cloudy sky, hands toward heaven

Down on my knee, I pray

Life Time

I can’t breath

The air is thicken and I can’t see through the fog

My illusions, the world is the stage of plays

Each plot lay out with all details carefully orchestrated

Each line tailored to a specific point in time

God is mighty and I am but his hand puppet, the veil of illusions

is his grand scheme

Destiny

Path

Trust

Faith

Close my eyes sink deep down in to my soul

Ask my guardian angel, my inner wisdom

Where to go

To find my truth

To find your truth

What to do when my heart is full of love

Reaching for the impossible, to hold on to us through time

through eternity

It feels like I have been here before

face with the same question many life times ago

with you, with you, and with you

It seems like our karma caught up with us

waiting for the circle to be completed

waiting for an answer to the quiz of life

Say yes to life and love

Or say maybe,

maybe we will wait

We will wait to be one together in another life time?

Just like I did, you did many life times

ago…

Eyes

Every time I cried you wiped away the tears

You hold me close

and kept me safe

Every time I smiled it was your eyes

I looked into

Every embrace, every touch, every kiss,

Every time you smiled

my sky lighted up

The moon and stars filled with sparkles of joy

And every time you said your world

is a brighter place because of me

I smiled quietly

just like the mirrors, we reflected

each other inner skies through our eyes

Souls

Like sweet angels from heaven

He visited me in my dreams, whispering softly the song of love

Soft touch of his lips upon my brows

Kiss away all worries and the world’s woes

Wipe away the tears and the heartache

He said he was always there

One step aside

One step ahead

One step behind

But never far away, I said I heard his voice in my dreams

Like I have heard his whispers, waiting for a chance

Waiting for the day we will meet

Waited

for our souls to find

the path

to each other

So we can catch every sunset and sunrise

In each other’s eyes

Random Thoughts

In the lack of fear, love is the best gift you can give to someone and can’t help but receive the benefit in return. I am glowing with peace

I am naughty but my naughtiness is aim to please and bring no pain

I found God; not in heaven but in my heart when I am one with the one I love

When I look into your eyes all I can see is the reflection of my soul; are you my soul mate?

Separation from you can be painful at time but it is a good pain, the kind of pain that signals deeper connection

When a simple walk turned into a journey of the two of us exploring the world together, I know I have found my playmate. I love to see the world through your eyes, full of curiosity and wonder

When you whisper in my ears sweet love, my heart sings

Trust can’t be earned through words alone, action has to follow suit

Don’t make promises about tomorrow since I don’t know tomorrow will come; each breath is fragile and sacred. I just want to live each day brand new again with you

I love you

Dance with my father

Dance with my father

I never had that chance

To be in his arms and listen to him telling me how beautiful I am

Dance with my father

to be little girl I have never got the chance to be

Dad, I am forever broken you see

Not to be able to be with you in your last moment

To tell you how much you meant to me, how much I love you

To thank you

Dad

Will you be the angel to guide me through this confusion world

to teach me how to open my heart

To take risk and to learn how to trust

And to dance again

Truth

And every time my heart wandered and I did not


And every time my soul relented and I stayed center

I know

I have found something special

Something worth paying attention to, something worth taking notes

In late night time stands still

Soft lights reflect on the yellow walls

And the shadow of my dream reminds me of a girl,

brown eyes girl

In love there is no absolute antidote

No right or wrong mixtures of how much I care

How much I will give

And how much I will risk

The measure comes in the night, when all are still

And the only voice I hear

Is the beating of my heart

The beautiful voice of my truth

Do you know your truth?

Fly

She said to me,

spread your wings

and fly like the butterfly you meant to be

She said, time is right and the open sky is in full spring

Lavender, red, purple and pink

She said love waits for no one and spares no heart

It’s hanging by for a moment

Don’t let your dream fall short

When love come knocking, please do what you always taught

Open your heart

allow love to come in

I held her close and whispered in her ears

You have me in this life

And many life to come

I love you and for eternity that the way it will be

She said to me,

Everything you are

Everything you will be

Is everything

I want to be

Fly, Mommy

Your job here is done

Don’t waste a moment, don’t hesitate,

please open the gate

And let life in

Glows

The inner lights, my sky, stars

Sparkle bright, your love

Care

Tenderness

Your lips, your hands, your eyes, a piece of your sky

Slow touch,

brush

of your lips

Wild tangle hairs

Hold me close again, can you

Will you

Kiss me softer, softer

My soul

Coming loose

Possible

Is it possible that I am falling in love with life

Is it possible that I am letting go

of my fear

Smiling this morning on my way through the street

I noticed

sweet white and pink cherry blossoms

Grace the dry rock walls and broken down fences

Wet leaves and cold air overwhelmed my senses

Nature at its best,

the cycles of the continuing universe

Winter is leaving and spring has come to stay

Is it possible that I am falling in love with me?

Is it possible that I embrace my all being?

Every strand of hair,

every freckle on my skin

The crooked smile, the sad eyes

and the confusing process

Of learning and dropping all my acquiring knowledge

Lessons of a certain yesterday

that no longer exist

Is it possible that every waking moment life can be good

Is it possible that I have arrived at the gate of my sky

This moment of inner peace;

of knowing

Is it possible?

Pebbles

There is beauty and there is beauty

The kind that pulls your heart out and claws at your soul

Gray sky, foggy horizon, tiny rain drops on my shoulders

There is happy and there is happy

The in awe feeling at nature's beauty and the overwhelming

feeling of knowing you are part of this beauty

Just like the pebbles I happened to be on the beach that day at that time

and tomorrow just like the pebbles I will get

swept up to a different shore by the tides of life

Constant changes, constant in flux

Longing for a safe harbor only to find out

I am already safe

Maybe

now I will learn to float and let the waves carry me to

wherever

I need to be or will be

Maybe I will learn to be safe within my own skin

I am not a rationalist and definitely not a realist

I float in between where the dark night is saying good bye

and the warm sun has yet come

In between the dawn of consciousness and

the sleepiness of the subconscious mind. In between the

inconsolable adult and the raging child waiting to be loved

This is where I am and it is alright

Time to take care the need of oneself

Time to love and nourish that child like nobody ever loved her before

It has to come from me...

This love, this unconditional love that I long for; all my life

This Moment

Stillness of the soul, no conversation, no thoughts, no contemplation

There is no past, no future; there is just you and me

No gain, no lost, completely filled in this moment

Will you sit still with me?

Will you listen to the universe quiet whisper?

Of a new dawn on the verge of the ocean

Shivering in the darkness before the sunlight wake up all being

Will you sink down into the bottom of the sea?

And disappear with me, to become one with the universe

To go back to where we belong, speckles of sand

Naked, raw, collided

Dizzying in the ebb and flow of life

I am standing here; once again I see the sunrise

Hands folded close to my heart

Listened to the voice of the sky

Everything I need to hear, to not stray far away

From my truth, your truth

I meant to be here, right here with you, this moment!

Matters of the heart

In the matters of the heart, trust comes in many folds
I don’t need to know where your heart has been;
I want to know where your heart is now
It doesn’t matter you were a fool yesterday, I only need
to know if you have learn the lessons today
I don’t ask questions because life should be unfold
not force
Because what I feel, see will surpass what you will tell me
And maybe my senses will lead me astray, I will be humbled
again by another lesson life has afford me.
I trust my heart and my inner voice
It recognizes greatness and never failed to
report in the past. It also warns me of illusions
and
offers doses of reality when I am ready to receive.
I don’t tell you much because the past
but a blur of the lessons I have had
And everything you want to know, to learn about me
will come in due time.
When I am ready when you are ready
Like the beautiful daffodils maybe life and love need the dormant period gathering strength to grow
And maybe in the way life unfold; we can both learn something about each other
To trust what our heart tell us and not fear what it will do to us
If we can embrace life experience whole-heartedly
Maybe we will learn for the first time
The lesson of love

Robin's lights

Every single person comes into our lives to teach a lesson
We can choose
I hope you choose this one
Without predicting the future; yes in some way it depicts the future choices you will make
It will teach tolerance and test your will
It will horn your skill and perfecting your self-awareness
Your fragile soul; shivering in the light of vulnerability and love
The mysterious power of surrender to oneself
To let God and let enough be enough
To live in the moment without worrying about the next
To be your amazing self and sing your song for many to enjoy
For others to bask in your lights; Robin’s lights!

The Way

It is not in the way you say how you feel
It is not in the way you jump at the opportunity to make me laugh
It is not in the way you try to hide your vulnerability
It is in the way you see your soul
The way you listen and smile silently to yourself
The way you say thank you for the beautiful verses
The way you define yourself
Happy to see the world and happy to share the joy
In the world of sameness, of corruption and broken dreams
You reminded me of a shining star, blinking above the sky
Waiting for a comet; passing by with the fairy tale of a happy ending

Heart and Mind

Sometime my mind is like a bright light; unable to shine on itself
Great mind with cold heart; like form with no color
Sometime among men with transcendent minds
there can be a lacking;the ability to think and feel deeply
It is an incompleteness
That is perhalf the sorrow that I carry with me
I want to know a great mind among men
with passionate heart
who recognizes me

Life is never easy for those who dream

Under the boundless soothing sky
My eyes reach for the edge of the world and still
Wet grass, old leaves, blush cheeks, wild tangled hairs
Watching the day slipped away slowly in perfect rhythm
Have you ever been told, being alone is better than been lonely?
In cities no one is quiet but many souls are sad
Where I am, people are quiet but their hearts are full
The heart; the only broken instrument that work
I am not going to think that this world is only cold
If you want to come to my humble home
I have a rocking chair that have been known to bear heavy load
I am prepared to listen if you can speak in silence
Up here the sky is green and all you care is in between
Come this way, come with me let's get undone
Deep in my dream, deep in a dream
That's where you will find me; I hope you will find you

"The highest task for a bond between two people
Each protects the solitude of the other"

I am done with love but love is not done with me

If I let this little voice goes away, if I don’t tell you how I feel, if I just live half a life, if and if and if…

Give and take;
How can I make this delicate balance a stable in my life?
The overwhelming feeling of being alone
in a relationship, misunderstood
I dream of you; someone with bigger hands,
bigger feet, bigger heart
to embrace my little hands, feet, and heart.
And in return
I give back my heart , my soul,
endless devotion and love.
When I look up to you, on my tiptoes looking for a kiss
When I hug you, squeeze you tight with my skinny arms
When I curl up, trying to mold to you in bed for warm
When I look deep into your eyes looking for the ocean of love
that I know exist;
looking for the depth of your soul
where love is profound and deep and true.
Can you feel it?
My need to look up, to respect, to regard,
to give, to rely on you when I am happy, sad, weary, strong… I need you.